colours..
for a l0ng time it seems,
i finally cried it out..
broken my own promise,
but felt so much better than holding everything inside.
*smiles*
thank you for caring..
it means alot to me..
have no idea what or who else to believe,
so i'll jus believe that i knew the true you.
i h0pe u didn't disappoint me thou'.
becos i ch0se to believe in u agn.
- i wish for colours in my life!! -
:)
SEX and THE CITY
how ionic?!
watching 'Sex and The City' in Melbourne City.
Chickflick story on .LOVE.
tearing while watching it.
*sad smile*
Love lost & Love found.
Betrayals & Forgiveness.
Friendships & Love.
*smiles*
it's a fairy tale ending..
reminds me of why i love reading love novels,
cos of the happy endings..
ha,
some thing that i've always believed in..
but
no more, no longer..
*sad smile*
on the other hand,
i thank all my friends,
may they be close friends or not..
i'm grateful to u guys..
simply becos u're there for me
=)
*simple*
this movie reminds me of all things good & bad,
of love, trust, faith, happiness, forgiveness..
of betrayals, pain, hurts, doubts..
of friendships and relationships..
of the people u love & whom loves u..
*smiles*
- thank you for being there, my friends -
=)
ps, i need to find col0urs in my life to replace this empty void i still feel.
.MELBOURNE.
there must be some reasons why i fall in love with the snow at Falls Creek.
maybe is because of d delight of..
fallin' asleep w dizzling rain
&
waking up to a white blanket of snow..
*smiles*
:)
can't believe how pretty snow is..
how it falls around you..
to feel it on yr skin, yr face..
to feel d melting snow..
pity there isn't enough snow for skiing or boarding
=/
but i'm pretty contented..
had a restful 4 days up in the mountains,
suana-ing almost everyday.
cold but oh soo -pretty-!!
=p
but when it's time to leave d snow village,
i dreaded d Melbourne city so much..
=/
it's like i can't help thinking,
wondering,
the memories or lies..
somehow it feels like d city suffocating me.
how d0es a panic attack feels like?
i really can't wait to get out of d city,
&
amazingly, i misses Gatton alot.
it starts feeling so much like my h0me..
=p
realizing when ppl aak where do i c0me from,
my answer: Brisbane.
ha.
Singapore d0n't feels like home..
&
it definitely feels like i'm jus running away,
n0t wanting to face reality.
.sigh.
i HATE being a coward.
*blurghx*
- memento vivere - remembrance of life - remember to live -
ps, i need to forgive myself.
..S.I.L.E.N.C.E..
E.X.A.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.S
sHhhhh.....
=/
.worried sick.
court's on tues
can't really concentrate on my studies
am going alone cos d rest r having exams
=S
kinda freaking out,
jus not showing it.
i don't mind a fine & tt's tt!
jus pls don't suspend my license..
.sigh.
felt like a scaredy cat now
=/
outwardly, everything seems fine
inwardly, i'm just scare of everything.
no l0nger have that kind of conviction,
that type of strength,
that kind of beliefs.
nv thought i'll get burnt this badly.
- give me d power of a wish.. & i'll wish for...... -
darn!
think i chip my t0oth..
lol'
must be my tongue stub,
cos i rem biting hard on d stub
when i was tasting my food,
while cooking dinner..
thou' kevin say if there's tooth decay,
it might chip too!!
ha,
i hate dentist!!
=p
well, thank god is d back tooth,
shall be more careful.
hee =p
- shoot for d moon & u'll land am0ng d stars* -
Gunther's ER
stomach-churning exploration of human body
~ freaking gross.
Dr. Gunther von Hagens
- reputation for controversy
- documentary abt the workings & weakness of human body
- first-aid techniques to potentially save a life
~ can't believe our eyes (me & edw) when we turn on this documentary and saw a
naked MALE model as a 'choking victim' w/ the Red Cross representative doing a
first-aid saving procedure in front of a fully-clothed audiences. lol'
can u even imagine our amusement when the guy doesn't even needed to be naked to
be a model in a first-aid procedure?!! haa =p
~ Dr. Gunther then suddenly brought out a corpse as a 'donor' & started AUTOPSY!!!
haa, it's soo cool yet so gloss at the same time! *laughs*
god.. it's a real-life 'CSI' man.. laterally u can see Dr. Gunther peeling off the chest
skin, took a mechanical saw and started to hack thru' the rib-cage.. haa! it sounded so
much like what's in the movie 'The Saw'.. lol'
heart, lungs, stomach, intestines..... all seen it!!! ~arghh... gloss but yet at the same
time, can't bring my eyes off the tv screen.. haa, guess that's the only time in life i'm
g0nna witness an autopsy..
-laughs-
i miss CSI.
am so g0nna go on a CSI marath0n,
once i'm back in SG.
=p
* .w.i.n.t.e.r. .i.s. .h.e.r.e. *
1st day of winter..
surprisingly its not cold.
but i guess its the change of season,
days of gloomy weather,
strong howling winds,
sudden spots of rain..
12 assignments in 14 days.
i did it,
i can imagine how proud of me u'll be.
but u're no longer there.
i can't help but keep feeling that lingering sharp ache.
i wonder..
when will i stop feeling this way?
kept thinkin tt once my assignments are completed,
i'll be happy, b proud of myself.
i am proud of the fact tt i survuved it,
but i'm not happy.
cos u're no longer there.
i hate d fact -
i'm having such a hard time letting go.
=S
- hate this void u left me w -
